The Lost Night: A Daughter’s Search for the Truth of Her Father’s Murder
The Lost Night: A Daughter’s Search for the Truth of Her Father’s Murder — By Rachel Howard
It happened in Merced, California, late one June night in 1986. Ten year old Rachel’s stepbrother woke her up to a confusing scene, and the sight of a floor soaked in blood and her father clutching his throat. He was stabbed in his bed by an unknown assailant. Rachel returns to Fresno to live with her hardworking, preoccupied mother, drug-using, abusive stepfather, and her younger half-brother.
This is a memoir of growing up in difficult and unstable circumstances, in several different versions of family. Rachel falters along the way, but when her life starts to come together and she is looking forward to marriage, she decides to try to put together the pieces of her past. She reconnects with members of her father’s family, her father’s second and third wives and her former stepbrother. She never learns much more about her father’s murder, but she does come to some kind of peace with the past.